My night ... and yes, I am bored out of my mind!

7:20 PM - 9:28 PM: Talked to Rachel via AIM, all the while talking all prim and proper, like someone out of an 18th century movie. LOL ... SO much fun! You really learn how to expand your vocabulary!

9:30 PM - 11:00 PM - Watched the end of Pearl Harbor on tv and cried my eyes out. Haha ... I love that movie!

11:05 - Blogging out of such boredom.

Well, here I am. Blogging for absolutely no reason. Blogger ... such a gift!

OMG! I just remembered something!

I'm going to a ball on Friday night!!!! =D YAY!

OK, you know how I said the stuff bout dance classes in my earlier posts? Weeell, I wasn't able to make it to any. Bummer. BUUUUT ... I will be attending the end-of-classes ball! I get to wear a fancy dress and everything! =D As soon as Renee shows me how to get my pics from my camera to my computer, I'll post one of me lookin' all fancy!

That was update one. Update two is that we're FINALLY going to church again this Sunday! Good, right? NOOOO ... we're going to Jeremy's church! =O! Okay, I know that I should just let things roll and relax, but things are gonna be so awkward between us now! Ick!

But I have a hunch, and I don't like to dwell on it because it raises my hopes wayy too high, but I will just for a moment to share it with you!

He hasn't been online since last Tuesday to update his MySpace page (which is dedicated basically completely to his new girlfriend), which is weird, because he used to get on it EVERY DAY multiple times to change it. I have a feeling, and it's not confirmed yet, that they broke up ... which really shouldn't excite me, because even if he did ask me out again, I would say no.

Or ... would I?

I don't know ... I know you can't change a person without them changing themselves, so if he DID ask me out again, would I say yes and hope that I could change his mind about me? I mean, he STILL won't talk to anyone (and I mean ANYONE) about what Sam's dad said to him when they visited his church ... maybe it was that?

But if he did ask me out again and I said no, I'd have to live with myself. AND on top of that, I'd have to live with him too! (Not literally, of course.)

And then there's always the possibility that my hunch is dead wrong and that he hasn't been online because they're doing the same thing that we did by just switching to phone convos instead? Or maybe he's been busy?

UGH. I have GOT to forget about him.

OK, got supah dupah sidetracked and forgot to post this post!

Lotsa luvv,
~ MeGgY
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