I feel like, I would like, to be somewhere else doing something that matters ...

Okk .... the title is the first line of my TSFL (Theme Song For Life), More Than Useless by Relient K ... it's on my MixPod if you wanna listen to it!

School = Ick. Hate school.
Health = Going down! =O
Mood = Extremely close to depressed, but not quite there yet.

Explanations ... School is ick because doing 20 pages of Algebra in one day is quite, well, icky if you ask me ... but I have only myself to blame for falling a wee bit behind .......... *glances at all those numbers =O* ......... ok, a lot behind.
Health is going down because now my best friend is my water bottle ... I'M GETTING DEHYDRATED =O! No idea how this is happening =P.

And my mood is because now I've gotta call one of my best friends after she gets outta school and tell her that I CAN'T MAKE IT TO THE BALL TONIGHT! I have no ride to Prince George, which is 30 minutes from my house, and I've gotta stay home with Hannah because Renee is going out. (But she says that the reason that she's not giving me a ride is because she doesn't understand why I wanna go to the event when I haven't been to any of the classes, which I think is CRAZY. She's obviously not looking at the big picture that's taunting me now: I'd get outta the house for a day for a change, I'd get to see my friends who I haven't seen in weeks who I miss LIKE HECK, aaaannnddd I'd get to go to an uh-maze-ing ball!)

UGH.

I hate it when I get all excited for something, and then I can't make it. And I feel SO BAD, cuz I've had to back out on all the dance classes, when I've said a million times that I'd be there. Ugh. I just hope that having a movie marathon with Han tonight helps my rapidly descending mood.

Ah well. I gotta get my mind off of this craziness.
And now I bring myself to the other half of my scream-into-pillow-crazy-go-on-a-meaningless-tirade craziness ... according to my mom, Jeremy's been a real jerkface at work ... which tells me, YET AGAIN, that I should just stay away and not think about him anymore.

But the thing that drives me nuts is that I miss that feeling. You know, the one that you get inside when you know someone loves you? I want that back SO bad, it hurts. So, I am young ... I'm gonna enjoy life to the fullest, no matter what. And I'm gonna keep my eyes open ... God will send someone to me when the time is right.

Well I gotta head out ... places to go (in the house, of course), people to see, and movies to watch! Haha catch ya later!

Lotsa luvv,

~ MeGgY

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