Spilling my heart out

Have you ever lost someone, and not because of death? Cause they changed, and suddenly they're not the same person anymore, no matter how much you want them to be? Then you find yourself wondering if it was you who did something wrong, but when you try to fix it, you end up making a bigger mess. And then you try to forget about the person entirely, but there's an ache inside of your heart that you can't ignore, because it hurts with every step you take away from that person. And maybe you think that you might be able to save them, but you know that you can't change a person. They have to change themselves. What if that person comes around? Will they come back to you, or pretend that you never existed? What if the ache is getting worse and worse, and you can't ignore it at all, and it's driving you crazy, and it's affecting everything? And then you smack yourself in the head for being so ridiculous. You're making a big deal out of nothing. But then the ache comes back the next day, and you do it all over again. All you want to do is be able to talk to that person again, and show them that you really can love them. Every song makes you think of them. Every character in a book has a quality that they posses. And when things go wrong, you know that they can help you fix it, but you can't talk to them anymore, because you want the ache to go away. But, big surprise, that only makes it ten times worse. Then you ultimately come to the conclusion that it's up to them to change, and you to heal as best as you can. Yup, that outghta do the trick.

Thanks for reading my rambling. =)

~ MeGgY <33>