Pizza Time!

LOL I'm making pizza for dinner ...

Today was BORING ... no church cleaning ... no friends to hang with ... no fun times ... sigh ...

Jeremy emailed me today. He greeted me by saying "hey there beautiful" ... what does he see in me, anyways? Maybe it's because I am me, so I don't see myself the same way everyone else does. I hope that's the case, because I don't feel as good about myself as everyone thinks I should.

Today it's one year till my cousin Nichole's wedding ... I am SO psyched for her! Renee is going to be in it ... I'm going to have to road trip with her several times to PA next year ... I'm just praying that this goes better for her than prom did ... she went with Tony (remember him?) and he's a big huge jerkface. I would tackle him myself, but One: I'm not that kind of person. I'd rather settle things with words, not punches, and Two: He'd probably beat the crap out of me.

Haha. So much for that. ;)

I found out today just how much I'm going to miss it at my church. My mom is ready to leave it, for numerous reasons. What are they?
1: No one has her back through what we're going through ... they all think that my mom should just tough it out and deal with my dad's abuse. Which is stupid, because it's not like they know what it's like to dread their mom going to work, because they know that in that time, their dad is going to scream in their face for something stupid like leaving the tea sit on the counter to answer the phone.
2: This is where Renee's whole "Romeo and Juliet" thing comes to life ... Sam's dad is the Youth Leader at our church. He's cool for the most part, but any more, it's like he doesn't like teaching us or leading us to God as much as he did when Renee first came to the Seekers. My mom confided in him one day about what was going on in our family. And ever since, Renee and Sara have had problems, and Hannah and Kristin (Sam's little sister) have had more and more arguments. Sometimes it seems as if me and Sam are the only two who want to hold the Sam'slastname-Mylastname connection together. There have been some MAJOR problems between my mom and his dad ever since. He is the one who thinks that we should just deal with it and get over it. And now that my mom's getting a separation ... and then divorce ... well, they might as well just pick us up one day and throw us out the front doors.

That leads me to my wierd vision thing ... me and my mom and sisters, halfway out the front doors of church. All the people who want us out of church are pulling us one way (out the doors), and the few people who give a crap about us in our church on the other side, trying to pull us back in, like a nasty game of Tug-O-War. I've always imagined that.

I just made the pizza. It smells SO GOOD ... but somehow, I'm not all that hungry. My mom says that if I'm not careful, I'll get annorexia. I currently weigh 83 lbs., and I have no desire to shrivel up like last year's Easter lillies and die ... so I am going to STUFF MAH FACE NO MATTER HOW I FEEL!!!!

Hahaha ....

I took the first one out of the oven, and there was this STINKIN HUGE bubble in the middle of it ...

So what did I do?

Smacked it with a spoon and yelled "DIE EVIL BUBBLE!!!!"

Yeppppp, that be how I roll.

;)

My mom told me this afternoon before she went to work that Sunday she's going to try to take me, Renee, and Hannah to see Prince Caspian in theaters. I can't wait, I LOVE the Narnia series!

God bless, have an awesome night!!!

-- Megan