La la la la .... 

I am a terrible, horrible, heartless human being for being so busy and NOT BLOGGING FOR WEEKS!!!!!!!!!! So naturally, I've got a couple things to ramble about. =)

So I figured out today that an email from a good friend as soon as you wake up is an essential to starting off a great day ... and anyone who knows me well enough knows that that is code for "I sent Sam an email last night just saying hey and that I miss him and he replied with this gigantic bold, underlined, italicized HI with a bunch of exclamation points". Hehehe. I kept laughing ... and Renee asked me what drug I was on. I refrained from saying what I was thinking. Hehe.

This weekend is a girl's night sleepover for all the 9th and 10th grade girls in my new youth group ... and I'm kinda nervous, cause I know all of them, but only some of them really know me. I'm beyond thankful for the AWESOME friend I've made though! That's a complete plus.

And I'm thinking of changing up my blog ... what do you think? =) I'll probably have it all done by the time someone reads this anyways ... lol

AHHH! I forgot to mention TWILIGHT! It was amazing again ... Renee went out and bought it the day it came out, and then all of us sat and watched it. Awesomeness!!! (Speaking of ... Rachel's probably watched it without me lol!)

Teen Game Night was two weeks ago. (AHHH IT'S ALREADY BEEN TWO WEEKS!!!! xO) Gosh, I just realized that I'm so weak ... haha. It was fun and a bit weird ... for the sake of my sanity, I won't try to explain the weirdness. But the fun was nice. Ahh yess, the fun. =) The only downer was that it was raining, so we had to stay inside. Oh well ... I love the rain anyways! But I did have my life "threatened" if I don't come to dance class ... haha, thanks Mary. =)

Aaaaand, I'm FINALLY getting a job this summer! I'll let you know when that is ... I can't wait!!! So if you happen to be in Chester, Virginia, come and see me!!! Haha

So I think that's everything ... I'm gonna have to work out a blogging schedule for myself haha ... laterr!!

Peace outtt

MeGaN! <33>

Kwiz timeee!

I got this quiz off Rachel's blog ... copy and paste it on yours if you feel like quizzing! =D

What is a quote you think describes you? "I've built a wall. Not to block anyone out, but to see who loves me enough to climb over it." - Unknown

What song lyrics describe you at your best? "I met this girl who likes her heavy metal ..." xD

At your worst? "It's 2AM, feeling like I just lost a friend, Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me ..."

What phrase do people say to you a lot? The German phrase for "what is this?" ... I don't know how to spell it, but for some reason, I say it a lot. Haha

Which family member are you closest to? Not sure

Favorite type of music? Rock/Metal

If you had a choice to look into the future, would you do it? Nope, cause, knowing me, I'd do something to mess it all up. =)

What’s your favorite color? Blue, but red comes in a super close second.

Do you have a secret? Who doesn't?

What is your pet peeve? When people tap me on the shoulder. That bothers me for some unknown reason.

Who is are your closest friends? Sam, Rachel, Lindsay, Heidi, all my PGCC friends, all my friends outside of church, all my Blogger friends, and YOU! =D

What is your favorite thing to do? Make people smile.

Describe yourself in one word. Unique. =)

What makes you feel small? When I think I did good with something or I feel really good about something I did, and the person I'm trying to please isn't satisfied with it.

What was your favorite childhood memory? How long ago are we talking? 5 years ago, when I was 10 years old, sitting on my uncle and aunt's basement stairs with Mary, trying to bust two of my cousins who were trying to scare my younger cousins. That was soo much fun! That was also the first time I ever saw Sam ... =)

Do you keep a journal? I feel all Taylor Swift-y when I say that my songs ARE my journal. Those and basically anything I write. To get to know me, just read on. =)

What’s your favorite after school snack? Cookies!

What is something you’ve always wanted to try, but never did? Do I have to say? =) Weeeell, that'd be give someone something that I've had locked up in my desk for five years.

Who was your first crush? Real or imaginary? OK, let's go with real ... and anyone with a brain can figure that one out ... muahahahahahaha.

What are five things you couldn’t live without? God, my family, my friends, my memory, and music. They are the center of my world. =)

Peace & luvv
~ MeGaN
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May 2009 is ....

...... my one year Blogger anniversary!!! Yay!!! I'm hoping to have at least 100 posts by then, and have 100 for every year, so when get on Blogger years from now, I'll have like 1,000 posts. Yays!!

Yes, the picture is random, but it's so cute! If you like it, go to Photobucket or Flickr or some picture website and search for Pon and Zi ... there are TONS of them, and they're so cute!

So yesssss ... not much to update on ... life is somewhat boring right now ... plus there have been these frequent and somewhat creepy instances that rarely happen where I just sit and think about random things until I've overthought the subject and get tired of myself. Wierd? Yes. Megan-ish? Absolutely.

Oh, and half of me (the beyond wierd half) is trying to figure out how to write a murder mystery without killing anyone, because the person I intended on being murdered has really grown on me, and I might cry if she dies now ... ah the things creative writing does to me! (And yes, Rachel, I tried your idea ... it didn't work out with the rest of the story. =))

And I have the BIGGEST and BADDEST case of writer's block the world has ever seen. Well, probably not, but it definitely feels like it! I can't think of anything to do with any of the three current projects I am working on, and it's driving me INSANE! I think I've written a sentence at least in each one. That's uber bad for me. Hopefully it goes away REAL soon, cause this is one of those life-changing moments in the life of a writer where writing should come as easy as drawing breath!

Random piece of information, but I have a little fuzzy pony figurine sitting on top of my computer screen that belongs to Hannah, and every time I look at it, an idea suddenly hits me. Creepy, but sometimes really cool. And it's not working right now. Hence the writer's block. To quote my favorite character whom I've created: Ugh.

And that's that. =)

Lotsa luvv!
~ MeGaN
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I'm baaaaack! =D

Hmm ... not sure if I've used this picture before or not, but I love it, soooo BEHOLD!!!!!

OK, sooooo I'M BAAACK!!! I know, I haven't blogged since January ... that's really sad ... I'll work extra hard to make sure that doesn't happen again!

So yeah ... wow ... where in the world has the beginning of the year gone?! I think it's finally starting to catch up to me that life is hurtling at me like a bullet from a gun, and though I try my hardest, I cannot control, neither can I alter it's speed. Which stinks sometimes, cause there are a lot of things that will happen this year that I won't be able to halt, if only for a moment, what I want to.

For example ... Renee graduates on June 18th at 3:30PM, I think. She's all excited, but I kinda feel like this is the start of our lives ... like soon, she'll be off to wherever she needs to go to get her novel published, and I'll be here ... without her! I don't know ... I mean, I know it's not like I'll never see her again, I just feel like this is the beginning of something huge that I'm not really a part of. It makes me regret taking advantage of these past 15 years. Maybe this'll do me some good after all.

I discovered last night that I wanna see the world. I sat and made a list of all the places I wanna go, places I wish I could visit. (And yes, Ali, Island Park is one of them! =D) I'm not 100% sure if I'll actually carry through with it (it all depends on what happens in the next couple of years), but I think this is something I really wanna do.

OK, have you ever had one of those times when you just randomly wonder "what am I gonna do with my life"? Well that's been the last week for me. It hit me when I remembered that I'm gonna be 16 in December. Yikes. I'm not getting any younger! So what's gonna happen if I put off thinking about these things and then at my graduation day, I think "OH MY GOSH! I need to figure out my future!" I know I've gotta do something, but that something just hasn't been made perfectly clear to me. All I know is that I have two passions when it comes to hobbies: singing and writing. Writer sounds more like it when I think of my massive stage fright, but I've always sang and wanted to sing, so I'm not sure ... I guess I'll just wait and pray on it and see where I'm being led. =)

TWILIGHT COMES OUT ON DVD THE END OF THIS MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooooo jazzed for that! I can't wait to see it again ... I just hope that the Twilight movie night me and Rachel are planning works out, cause that would be the absolute BOMB!

And that's about it! =)

~ MeGaN
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Just UGH

I'm having a REALLY bad day today ... I'm just hoping that going to ATF tonight with my homies from the youth group (*tries to laugh*) will help me out a bit, cause seriously, I've almost never been more depressed.

In other news, I am sick, trying to fend off "brontasoratitus". Which I'm really hoping that it goes away FAST, cause the vocal auditions for the Spring Musical at my church is this Wednesday, and I can't sing, sooo yeah, I really don't want to miss out on that.

As I said before, ATF is tonight and tomorrow, and I'm pretty excited about that, cause Kutless is gonna be there, and they're one of my all-time favorite bands! I just hope that I'm allowed to go, what with having a cold and everything. Ughhh. =P

Well, that's that ... sorry for not posting in forever, I'll try to do that more often.

~ MeGaN
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This is my JAMMM!! xD

Okay, COMPLETELY forgot to say that ...

*drum roll*

I am in the choir!!!! YAY!!!

We're singing this Sunday morning, and I am REALLY nervous! Plus in late Feburary, I'm auditioning for singing some solos ... now THAT is something to be scared about! xO

But I think I'll be okay ... *takes deep breath*

Anyways, the title of this post is because in choir last Wednesday night, our director was playing the songs that we were going to be singing, and me, Renee, and Nay's friend Kelly were talking, and when our director flipped on the next song, all of a sudden Kelly turned to face him and exclaimed "THIS IS MY JAM!" really super loud. Everyone was laughing, it was great!

So now every time our favorite songs come on the radio or something, we all are like, yelling "this is my jam!" It's fun, you should try it sometime!

Plus wayy back when, remember when I said that I was gonna break out in random dance and song in the middle of random places that are not my home? Well, I've done it! I hit the mall, Wal*Mart, Target, CVS Pharmacy, and Food Lion ... it was very entertaining, to say the least. xD

That about does it! TTFN!

~ MeGaN
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((Has anybody noticed that Meg backwards is Gem? I just think that's cool! =D))

I hate to be late in posting this buuuuut ...

Okay, I am SUPERRRRR late in saying that January 4th was one of the best days in the history of the world ... Sam's birthday!!!!!! Even though he probably won't read this lol I just wanted to give a shout-out to one of my best friends ... you've been with me from the start, and I love you sooo much! Thanks for being there for me, I'll always be there for you. =)

Other than that, January's been pretty boring so far ... I haven't really done anything super-duper yet. But I can say that I have felt every possible human emotion there is to feel since 2009 started ... that's something.

Okiedokie, well you know how I said a while back that I kinda liked this guy from our church? Weeell, he's got a girlfriend, and I'm not really sure about liking anyone for right now, sooo yeppers. Which reminds me that I FINALLY became sociable, and now everyone in my class knows my name ... haha that's a BIG improvement, by the way.

So far the whole not dating thing is going smoothly. Well, no one has asked me out or anything, so obviously it's easy. But it makes it so much easier when there's no one you're crushing on, as I figured out the other day when I was thinking about it. So it's all good there! =)

And now I have a question ... have you ever had a gut feeling about something that could be the right or wrong thing to do, and you're completely not sure whether it's just you telling yourself that you should do that, or if it's really what you should do? Weell, would you do it just to see, even if it was something huge in your life, and it could seriously hurt you if it didn't work out, or would you walk away without taking the risk? I'm kinda facing that now, and I think I know what I have to do, but I'm afraid that it might just be me telling myself that it's what I'm supposed to do.

Urg. That bothers me.

OMGOSHHHHH I just remembered something! My mom is switching the plans on our phones, and when she does that, I'm getting a Rumor! Okayy, here's a picture so that you know what it looks like, just in case (it's a Sprint phone, by the way) ....

Whee! Super excited about that, considering I am sorta ashamed to pull out my phone now ... but I can't complain, cause we've had some good times together. *Nods solemnly*

I think that covers it for a couple uber exciting things happening in life at the moment ... blog ya later!

~ MeGaN
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